When One Of Your Children Is Not Your Husbands
Every night I say a silent prayer that my secret will go with me to the grave. Four years ago, I had a fling with an ex-boyfriend who was on holiday in Uganda from London. A month after that I realised I was pregnant.
I was confused and did not know what to do because I was certain it was not my husband's. My husband was so thrilled as were our relatives. And even if the boy doesn't look like anyone in the family, my husband loves him the most.
It haunts me daily because the boy seems to look more like his real father as he grows. Much as I didn't tell the real father the truth, I am scared that when he sees the boy he will know.
My husband was a sworn womaniser and that angered me so much. After bearing enough, I revenged by cheating on him. I conceived and since abortion was not an option for me, I had to live with the thought of convincing my husband that the child was his.
Unfortunately, his job involved a lot of travelling so he was rarely around. I was so happy when he returned because I knew that any sexual encounter with him would explain the pregnancy. I later hinted to him about the pregnancy and he was excited at the thought of being a father again. Interestingly, he even changed his bad habits and supported me through the pregnancy.
The true father of my son died recently and I hadn't told him about the child. I'll always keep it a secret.